Abandon Myself

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Stooping low to hide behind the bed

Hoping no one can see me

I fear, but I know what will happen

One more time to abandon myself

One more time to separate myself from this terror

I know later I will forget

I will go on like nothing happened

I can go outside and play

At night I know I will cry

I wake up crying, but in the morning I can go to school

I have to believe that everything will be okay

I can push the bad thoughts away

I try to think of all the fun stuff I want to do

I dread going home to listen to the fighting

Everyone is always upset.

All I hear is the screaming, and these painful memories resound in my head

I cover my ears and pretend not to hear

I am terrified someone will hurt each other or me

I can’t watch the violence anymore

(Written by Amy E. McCoy 11-8-06)